Sunday, December 9, 2018

Joy in the Journey

It's been a while since I posted so I figured it was time for an update. My pseudo tumor is still here, and regrettably, not much has changed concerning my pseudo tumor. I had my 3 month check-up with the neuroophthalmologist at the end of September and after looking at my optic nerves, he confirmed that the swelling hadn't changed. Luckily it hadn't worsened, but unfortunately it wasn't any better either. So we discussed the next steps and decided to increase the dosage of my migraine medication (Topomax) and continue working on weight loss. I did mention to him that my estrogen levels were extremely low and he found that interesting since he had heard that there was a connection between hormones and pseudo tumor cerebri, but unfortunately couldn't subscribe any treatment regarding my hormones since there wasn't a strong enough correlation between the two. So here we are, back to square one. I'm scheduled again for another 3 month-ish check-up in January and we'll see what the swelling looks like then.

I mentioned to Jordan the other day that I've been thinking about the first time I was diagnosed with this issue 11 years ago. It was awful, I was miserable and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. However, we caught it, treated it, and it disappeared over a matter of weeks. This time around, I recognized the symptoms, brought it to my doctor and we started meds right away. I thought that was the right move since we got ahead of it and kept it from getting as bad as it was the first time. Now I realize that maybe I was wrong. Since I started the diuretic medication before the spinal tap, my spinal pressure wasn't extremely high (see the previous post for more details), so the doctors weren't concerned with taking any fluid out during the procedure, unlike my first spinal tap where they drained over 30 mL of CSF. I am convinced that's the reason my pseudo tumor went away so quickly the first time. And now because they didn't drain any fluid out during this tap, my current pseudo tumor is hanging out much longer. Here we are 8 months later and it doesn't seem like it has plans of leaving any time soon. Somedays I wish I hadn't caught it as soon and we hadn't started the medications as quickly as we did so I could have gotten a more therapeutic and effective spinal tap to make this issue go away faster, just like 11 years ago.

Nonetheless, I've been doing my best to take care of myself and lose weight like the doctor has ordered. I'm down almost 14 lbs since the last check up on September 24 and almost 30 lbs since the beginning of the year! I'm sure some people get annoyed by my posts or stories about my workouts, healthy eating and exercise programs on social media, but I won't apologize for that. At this point, all I can do to treat this frustrating health condition is continue to lose weight and work on my health so that's what I'm going to do. I also figure that if my journey can inspire others to make positive changes or just make healthier choices, then I might as well try to encourage friends and family to join me when they can. I enjoy using social media in a positive way to share those victories and celebrate the little accomplishments along the way! With a health problem that doesn't have an end-date, I have to find something productive and positive to focus on that uses milestones and goal dates and check-ins. It keeps me accountable and allows me to have some sort of control while dealing with a health issue that I don't understand and thus can't control. And that's why I share my journey with others.

Meanwhile, life goes on. I turned 25 in October, highlighted my hair for the first time, suffered through a weird gastrointestinal issue for a few weeks, celebrated Halloween, and had an awesome Friendsgiving since I worked on actual Thanksgiving. Jord is about to finish up another semester of school at the U and we're both still working full-time at the same jobs. There might be a few changes in the near-ish future but we'll update those as they come. We'll be staying in Utah for Christmas this year, so even though I'm sad to be missing family this month (especially an adorable new niece), at least we have technology to communicate.
Merry Christmas everyone!











Thursday, September 20, 2018

Tests, Results, & Questions

Well, my lab results came back. And I want to be transparent with sharing them in case anyone has similar issues or has ideas about what to do. So here they are:
My thyroid level is normal, which is actually a little disappointing to me because I FEEL like I have all the classic symptoms of hypothyroidism (thin/fragile hair, low energy, weight gain, etc.) But there we have it.

Lipids are a little off so I'm working on the usual things like diet and exercise to help with that as well as taking 4 GMs of fish oil a day.
>P.S. I'm currently doing a weight-lifting program through Beachbody called LIIFT4 and I love it! It's the perfect mix of cardio and lifting and it works great with my schedule, so if you're interested in learning more about it I'd love to tell you more.<

My HbA1c came back normal! Yay! No diabetes!

Metabolic panel looks good so my kidneys and liver are functioning well and that's a relief.

CBC looks baseline for me. My white blood cells have been consistently elevated for almost two years now. We aren't exactly sure why, but we're thinking maybe allergies? I mean, it would make sense considering that I'm allergic to practically everything.

Here's a nice little throwback to my allergy testing in case you don't believe me:

That would also explain why my RDW and eosinophils are elevated.

Now here come the hormones:


Testosterone is normal.
Insulin resistance is good and they usually test that since it could be related to PCOS.
However, my progesterone is very low and my estrogen is virtually nonexistent. It's less than 0.1! I even have a birth control implant in my arm that should be supplying me with some estrogen. We looked that up during my visit and found that it does have estrogen in it so now we're all even more confused as to why my estrogen level is so low. She also said it was weird that the lab only gave her pregnancy references so it's not accurate to compare my results to those ranges. Hmmm.

Maybe it's a fluke? But all of my other test results came back within the normal range so I feel like if something was wrong with the test then we would see weird results with other values. My doctor said she wanted to do some more research and consult a few other people before she started me on medications, and then she called me the next day to schedule a follow-up appointment and tell me she had some ideas. So I'm going back on October 5 to see what I can do and maybe get some answers. Perhaps this abnormal level has something to do with my pseudo tumor and cerebral hypertension?

Until then, I've been trying to work on sticking to a detox diet suggested by my doctor to help with intestinal issues. This includes cutting out carbs and dairy for 4 weeks and then introducing things back in to kind of restart my guts and rebuild all of the good flora. It SUCKS but I'm hoping it will be worth it.

Did you know that even taking antibiotics as a child for ear infections or strep-throat can completely destroy your gastrointestinal system and keep it that way for the rest of your life?! I had no idea. So that's why it sometimes takes a complete overhaul to detox your system and reset it to its "factory settings" haha. I'm taking the fish oil plus 4 capsules of probiotics and enzymes a day along with the diet to work on cleaning it up.

And those are my results. Does anyone else have similar issues? Any advice or ideas? I'm all ears and open to suggestions!

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

What the Health?

It's been a year and a half since I last published a post on this blog. As much as I would love to catch up on everything that has happened, it just feels too overwhelming to recount every event. So I'll start where I'm at now and maybe bring up some past memories as I remember them. Since my life is currently focused on health issues, these next few blog posts will probably be documenting my "journey" toward finding answers and testing out different solutions. (I hate using the word "journey" because it sounds so cliche but I can't think of any other word right now to describe this process so I guess it'll do).

About three months ago, I was re-diagnosed with pseudo tumor cerebri, but the doctors don't like using the word tumor anymore so it has been renamed idiopathic intracranial hypertension. In other words, I have increased pressure in my head from spinal fluid and the doctors don't know why. This condition is mainly diagnosed by optic nerve swelling in the back of the eyes, along with symptoms such as headaches, neckaches and vision problems. These symptoms are usually associated with tumors which is the reason behind the original name except there isn't actually a tumor there. Just lots of fun problems with no clear cause.


I experienced this issue for the first time 11 years ago during the summer between seventh and eighth grade and it was terrible. I had all the classic signs but just thought I was experiencing extreme heat exhaustion from a pool party. However, no medications could take the headache away and I was miserable. I also just happened to start my period for the first time a week later so we thought maybe that had something to do with that. A few days after that, I went to the eye doctor for a routine check-up and that's when he noticed the severe optic nerve swelling. That, along with the other symptoms,  finally sent me to the ER so they could run some tests and try to figure out what was going on. I had a spinal tap done and through that test learned that my cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) pressure was extremely high and they needed to drain 30 mL of fluid from my spine. Although I threw up right after the test, I immediately started to feel better because most of the pressure had finally been relieved. The doctors had me take a diuretic for awhile to make sure I kept the fluid off and I visited an ophthalmologist for a long time to monitor my optic nerves. Other than that, everything went away and I felt great.

Fast forward 11 years later, I started feeling the same things again. Being a nurse now, I am able to recognize problems pretty quickly and I also overthink EVERYTHING. So when I started experiencing daily headaches and painful neckaches my mind immediately went back to pseudo tumor. This time however, I started noticing weird vision problems and whooshing in my ears that I didn't have the first time and that's what really freaked me out. I knew something serious was going on and I couldn't just overlook that. So I went to my primary care doctor who recommended that I go to the Moran triage center to have an eye doctor check me out as well. I went the next morning and after waiting almost an hour in the exam room (yay healthcare) he finally took one look into my eyes and saw the swelling. And there you have it, diagnosed with pseudo tumor cerebri again, or now termed idiopathic intracranial hypertension. This doctor didn't want to deal with it however, so he had me set up an appointment with a neuro-ophthalmologist instead. Luckily I got scheduled within two weeks rather than the usual two month wait. He didn't even need to dilate my eyes to see the swelling so we decided that the next best step would be an MRI to make sure there actually wasn't a tumor in my brain, and then if that came back normal we would do another spinal tap to check my pressures and test for any infections. So we moved forward. I was also started on the same diuretic I took 11 years ago as well as a medication to help with the headaches.

After completing a 30 minute MRI while listening to Michael Buble and jazz Christmas songs (apparently that's what Pandora thinks people want to hear when they request Michael Buble?), everything came back normal and I waited three weeks to finally schedule my spinal tap. I guess it's also appropriate for the neuro-ophthalmologist and his scheduler to go on vacation at the same time so patients can't have anything done for weeks? Hey, even though I work in healthcare I clearly still have some issues with how things are operated. Anyway, spinal tap day came. They injected me with the lidocaine and then stuck the needle into my spine using x-ray. I could feel it every time they advanced it or switched directions and she had to take it out and put it back in at one point. It was pretty painful. When they tried to pull fluid out, nothing was coming so they decided to turn me on my side and advance the needle deeper. That was probably some of the worst pain I have ever experienced because the needle would hit just the right nerve and send shooting pains down my coccyx or down my leg. Let's just say I was glad that I was turned away from them so they couldn't see the tears in my eyes haha. They finally got some fluid and I had to stay on bedrest for the rest of the day. My back was pretty sore for a few days but other than that I didn't experience any other complications. I got my results back and it said my opening pressure was 22. Depending on what you Google or who you talk to, this could either be considered high or normal. Apparently my neuro-ophthalmologist thinks it's normal and all my labs came back negative as well. I have a couple guesses as to why my pressure was "normal" this time: I caught the issue much sooner than I did the first time because I recognized the symptoms and took action right away. I also started the diuretic BEFORE the spinal tap which could have lowered the CSF amount, as opposed to my first spinal tap experience. Either way, it seems like my doctor doesn't want to do much since it's "normal."

So here we are. I don't feel any different than I did three months ago which is a little disappointing because I was hoping that the spinal tap would help like it did last time. The medications actually did help at first because I wasn't having headaches anymore, but now I'm starting to get them almost every day again. My vision problems make me really really dizzy whenever I stand up (to the point where so much light rushes into my eyes and I can't see anything for a few seconds). The stupid whooshing is still in my ears and I have a hard time hearing. Needless to say, this isn't very fun to deal with.

But here's the best part. Since the doctors don't know what causes the intracranial hypertension, they collectively decided that weight loss is the best solution (cue the eye rolls). If you look up IIH on the internet, you'll find that this problem is most common in overweight women of childbearing age. The reason this frustrates me is because I personally feel like doctors use weight loss as the catch-all to every problem they can't figure out. Now maybe losing weight really is the answer to IIH, but if it is, why didn't the problem surface when I first started gaining weight several years ago? Maybe it's been slowly building up over the last few years? But why would it show up right after I actually lost a little bit of weight this year? Why don't more overweight women my age and older have this issue? And why did it first show up when I was only 13 years old? Clearly I have lots of questions and I'm sure it's just as frustrating for medical professionals who don't have the answers.

You would think this would be the kick in the pants I need to take losing weight more seriously but it's still a daily struggle and it's something I've fought with for YEARS.  I think I'm starting to find better ideas and more reasonable weight loss solutions for my life and I know I can do it because Jordan and I both lost weight earlier this year when we stuck with a program. I just need to find that motivation again but this isn't something that can happen overnight which is why I wish I could find another solution to the IIH in the meantime.

And that brings me to this next part. The neuro-ophthalmologist's office sent me a packet about pseudo tumor and it mentioned something I hadn't heard before. The packet explained that in this condition, CSF outflow is blocked and the reason for decreased outflow is not clear. It did mention however, that hormonal influence might play a factor and this got me thinking. Yes, I have had some hormones tested in the past but not extensively. A coworker and I had had a previous conversation about a Nurse Practitioner that she was seeing for her hormone issues and I thought I would take her up on getting that information. Another coworker also asked if I had gotten any second opinions and I realized that I never had. That was kind of an "ah ha" moment for me as well. I used all of wonderful advice I received to schedule an appointment and I finally saw this provider today. We talked about all of these different issues and I'm going back on Friday for a physical exam and to do a thorough hormone workup just to test everything. Even if they all come back normal (which at this point I wouldn't be surprised about), at least I could rule that out as a cause. Because I have received so many disappointing answers and results in the past (and by that I mean everything comes back normal even though there is clearly a problem), I'm trying to remind myself that it's important to take those negative results and learn to move forward. Although it may not be the answer I wanted, it's still an answer and I'll never have to wonder "what if?".

So that's where we are. Hopefully by some time next week I'll have the results regarding my hormone levels and my provider and I can make a plan regarding those answers, whatever they may be. I also messaged my neuro-ophthalmologist last week and still haven't heard back but I have a follow-up with him at the end of September so we'll see what happens there. Stay tuned for more updates!

Monday, March 6, 2017

2016 in Review

Well I decided to revisit my blog today and realized that I enjoyed reading back on everything we did in 2015. So I figured I would write another post highlighting the fun things we did last year. It probably won't be as detailed since I can't remember every little thing, but if you're reading this and remember something we did together please let me know so I can include it!

Here are some of the memories I can recall:

  • Celebrated New Year's with Jason, Derek, Kyle and Megan (and a giant Big Daddy's pizza haha)
  • Took a weekend trip up to Rexburg in March just to visit and go shooting
  • Trained a new coworker who is now one of my best friends at work
  • Flew to California in April for a getaway/2nd Anniversary celebration and spent 1 day in Hollywood, 2 days at Disneyland, drove to the beach and went to an Angel's game (Jordan's first MLB game)

  • Went wedding dress shopping with Alex here in Utah
  • Flew up to Washington at the end of April for Alex's bridal shower/bachelorette party and bridal pictures before she left for Brazil

  • Mom and Jenna visited in May so we could sing in Sacrament meeting and then the lady called the night before saying she double-booked musical performances and we would have to reschedule...
  • Had family pictures taken by my wonderful friend Whitney
  • Joined Mary Kay (and didn't do much from there haha)
  • Celebrated Megan's birthday at Cheesecake Factory
  • Flew up to Washington again in June for Sammie's high school and seminary graduation and to help out with BINGO at the graduation party

  • Went to Applebee's with the girls and Dallin for half-price appetizers like we always do


  • And of course we ate at Frost Me Sweet and Shanghai because we had to 
  • Spent lots of time with Janell and Kyle while they came down for his wrist surgeries/check-ups
  • Donated some more blood
  • Had Shonna and Lydia fly down by themselves to visit
  • Played a lot of Call of Duty on our new Playstation 4 haha
  • Bought our first gun!
  • Drove up to Rexburg for Derek's mission farewell (and Big Jud's) in July and then again just for fun (and to shoot our new gun)



  • Jordan quit working at Harmon's (finally) and started another part-time job
  • Switched from working nights to the day shift at work!
  • Became friends with one of my favorite patients at work and helped her learn about the Gospel (we have some really neat stories and experiences if you want to hear more about that)
  • Won the cutest baby contest at work haha
  • Celebrated Jordan's 25th birthday in September
  • Went to a Jazz game with Shonna, Lydia and Jenna
  • Celebrated my 23rd birthday in October
  • Mom, Ronnie and Lydia flew down for a Pentatonix concert and just to hang out
  • Went to Frightmares for the first time with Kallen and Hayley
  • Celebrated Halloween with Kallen and Hayley as well by decorating cookies, carving pumpkins and watching movies


  • Helped Jordan with tons of homework while he finished three more semesters at LDSBC

  • Participated in our first Primary Program in November
  • Played football on Thanksgiving with Kallen and Beaux
  • Cooked our first giant Thanksgiving feast since my family flew down this year
  • Bought new iPhone 7's and went black Friday shopping
  • Decorated for Christmas again
  • Got a birth control implant put in my arm in December (that was fun and not painful at all...)
  • Drove around town to look at Christmas lights with Kallen and Hayley
  • Worked on Christmas Eve and then celebrated Christmas with Chanel, the Stewarts and the Evans family (after skyping mine that morning after church)
  • Made it through some really crazy snow storms
  • Played games and ate Thai food with Beaux and Lauren (while they were in town) and Kallen and Hayley
  • Went to a U of U Institute party with Kallen and Hayley for New Year's Eve
  • Worked New Year's Day and ate a ton of unhealthy food that my coworkers brought haha
And that's about it for 2016! I guess I was able to remember more about that year thanks to all the pictures I took haha. But seriously, if anyone else remembers something please let me know cause I love looking back at these blogposts and reliving everything. Thank you to all of the friends and family members who made a difference to us last year and who continue to be involved in our lives. We love you!